Not sleeping much – sleeping, then waking, then sleeping, then waking. Longing for your gentle kiss – missing your delicate fragrance close to me.

I love you x.

Thinking of your smile – hearing your voice in my head – longing to kiss you.

I love you my beautiful one x.

Finished all my work – done my weekly emails chasing things up. Thought about nose thing again, but thought better of it – there you were looking over my shoulder threatening to faint on me!

My beautiful one, I adore you. I sit in meetings wanting to come and find you. I sit in my office wanting to call you. I listen to every set of footsteps on the stairs in case they are yours. I constantly want to see you, hear you, talk to you, hold you, kiss you. You are the most delightful soul, enchanting and mesmerising. You are beautiful and sexy. You are magical and tender in the way that you touch me. Being close to you is the most extraordinarily loving and gentle experience.

Every minute of every day, you are in my head and in my heart. I dream of playing my game – for hours I could sit caressing your neck, nothing more, just feeling the peace and contentment flowing from you through my fingers into my soul. I want to sit with my arms around you, holding you close, just chatting about anything and everything and nothing – perhaps even geopolitics! But actually I don’t really care because if you are there and I am there then everything else will be completely irrelevant. And best of all we will be “us” and “us” will be just perfect.

And all because you are a very special soul indeed.

I love you x.

Wondering what you are doing, how you are? Hoping that you are happy, smiling. Thinking about the things you do and say and the things you like and don’t like – trying to understand you better. I want to be the person who cares for you and who keeps you safe. I want to love you so that you know you are loved and wanted. I want you to see the delight that you bring to me so that you come to see what a wonderful person you are. For all of that I need to understand you better – some of that comes with time, some with the two of us having time and space together to ourselves.

This morning you asked about the things I write – do ask more whenever you want, there is nothing that I would not talk with you about. None of it is segregated in any way – it is all just me and my thoughts and I trust you absolutely to look after me whatever we discuss. In every way, for all of me and all of my thoughts and emotions I don’t think that I can have any boundaries with you. I cannot be the person who loves you and who is so physically close to you and then hide parts of me from you – that would be wrong. The only thing I do worry about is that some parts (only one or two bits) are hard to hear, I think, and if you never wanted to hear those bits I would understand – the rest is just a bit dull really but is just me!

Every time we talk I just dissolve with the affection in your voice for me – you are an enchanting soul.

I love you my beautiful one x.

Sometimes words aren’t enough – I feel such intense feelings and they overwhelm me, yet at the same time I feel your love all around me and it feels just heavenly.

I love you beautiful one x.

Another walk and then some more jobs – always thinking of you. Wanting to hold you and to feel you safe up against me in my arms. Sat for a while (in the rain!) with my eyes closed thinking of caressing your skin, your neck and your back, and then hearing your gentle gasps – and it was simply absolute peace. Didn’t notice the rain, just happy to be there with you in my thoughts capturing my heart. Sat there for ages, was very wet at the end but just very very lovely.

I am looking forward to time together – it will be good for “us”. Whenever I am with you I am very happy so I know that we will have a wonderful time whatever we choose to do. Falling asleep with you in my arms will be the most beautiful experience.

I love you x

Done four out of six things but just found another one to do.

I am so happy that we spoke earlier – it has brightened my mood so much. But then you always do that – it is always quite magical and just reinforces what an extraordinarily special person you are. I am so looking forward to seeing you tomorrow.

Please just carry on being you – I don’t want anything else – for me you are quite perfect just as you are. So it is not about being on a pedestal and you have nowhere to ‘fall’ – because it is just about you being you.

I love you my beautiful one x.

Your voice is beautiful, enchanting, hypnotic, intoxicating and so much more. Thank you for letting me call – it makes the wait so much more bearable – but if I could, I would just come and find you right now….

I love you so very much x.