It is late and I am tired and I have had more to drink than is perhaps good for me on a week night. I need to tell you some things about me, my darling beautiful one.

I am sorry that I am hard work for you – you make me feel the most amazing things – things that I have never felt before. I am overwhelmed by you at times – magical sensations coursing through my body just make me insane for you. I sometimes then get a bit ‘grabby’ and I am sorry. But the desire you make me feel for you is uncontrollable.

In my whole life to-date I have only been intimate with three women – and you are the third of the three. I am insecure, I know that. In part because you are amazing and beautiful and I am not anything like that; in part it perhaps stems from when I was attacked – one of the girls at medical school had a thing for me. I did not know how she felt. She was my friend and nothing more, I never once touched her in any way. But her boyfriend (another medical student) found out and arranged for two people to attack me to make sure that I kept away from her. I did just as they wanted – but I promise, I never ever touched her, I never knew what she felt about me until that day when it happened – he held me down and the other two did what they did, one after the other. She came to see me about a month later because she found out about it – he told her that it was her fault, that they had to teach me a lesson. It wasn’t her fault, I knew that. She and I talked – she was more upset than I was. She cried lots, I couldn’t – no tears left.

But that was a long time ago, and for you and I now, suffice it to say that the other two women in my life have never been as kind, gentle and loving as you are to me. You ask me “what do I need?” and “what do I want?” – I just want you – nothing more – that’s all I need.

I don’t have any boundaries with you – I will do anything and everything that you want, whenever you want, however you want, wherever you want. I am yours. I belong to you too so you can do anything with me, to me – again whatever and however you want. I trust you absolutely and implicitly and I know that you will look after me. Just as I would always keep you safe – so I know that you will do the same for me. I am not being reckless here – I am though putting myself in your hands – and I am very content that that is a good place for me to be.

So please know that you are a magical soul. Please know that you make me feel so loved and wanted that sometimes I don’t know what to say to you. But you will not break me – you will not make me pass out. But you will definitely make me feel loved and wanted in a way that I have never known – and that takes a bit of getting used to. What you did last Saturday was something that I have never known – no woman has ever felt interested enough in me to take so much time with me like you did. Whatever you want to do with me, whatever you want me to do with you – please just tell me or just do it… no boundaries remember, my beautiful one. My love for you is absolute.

Long message – late at night – my heart is yours – I love you x.

I miss you very much. Will be on my own in a bit – time to sit with my eyes closed in the quiet with just you in my head. No noise, just you my beautiful one – and for that I am eternally grateful. I need you more than you can ever know.

I love you x.

In everything you do you are absolutely amazing – I feel so in awe of how kind and loving you are. You are not hard work, or needy, or anything along those lines. You are simply a very loving soul who feels normal emotions and who from time-to-time feels sad about our complicated lives. And that is entirely fair, normal, appropriate etc. I feel the same and there would be something wrong with both of us if we did not feel like that at times. We cannot share the strength of love and emotions that we do and then find it easy to walk away at the end of each day.

So we share this ache. At the same time I am enriched by having you in my life. I do not want to lose you – you are so very special – simply definitely perfect.

I love you my darling beautiful one x.

Sorry not many messages today – a bit distracted by this very beautiful woman who constantly shows me how much she loves me. And then this evening was extraordinary, heavenly, amazing and so much more – I didn’t even know that I could feel such sensations. Yet again you take my breath away, yet again my love for you deepens.

It is ok to be sad at times – I am too….

I love you very much indeed my beautiful one x.

Thank you for letting me visit – you always look so lovely. Glad that you had some lunch! I am just mesmerised by you and would spend all of my time with you if that were possible…..

I love you very much indeed x.

You enrich my life in a way that I had never imagined. Whenever I spend time with you, I am just amazed by how much my love for you grows in its richness and deepens in ways that I had not anticipated. Being close to you both physically and emotionally, in no way was I prepared for what I now feel – I simply feel overrun and engulfed by the most intense emotions. And every day it changes.

This week is a good week – next week will be terrible, I know that – but “us” is growing in a wonderful way and I, for one, am very pleased that this is the case.

I love you my beautiful one x.

Hello my beautiful one – you are such a delight to me in every way. Thank you so much for wanting an “us” – you brighten my life in every way, every day in everything that we do.

I love you x.

Good morning – I hope that you slept well.

Missing you lots but looking forward to seeing you soon.

I love you my beautiful one x.