Back from walk – not as cold but very wet today so slowing drying out. This morning’s lesson was non-Euclidean geometry and Riemann’s hypothesis. This one I don’t understand other than very superficially but I don’t feel bad as no one has ever proven it yet. But it is interesting in that it underpins Einstein’s general relativity which I do mostly understand.

I hope that you slept ok. I think about you lots. And then lots more and then lots more. And it is really very good. At least now only one more day until I see you again and I have tons of work to do – 6 reports to assure, so time to get on with them. This weekend thing though is vastly overrated (unless of course we were together!) – I used to be so patient….

I wish that I could hold you in my arms right now – feeling you safe, close to me is such contentment.

I love you beautiful one x.

Hi, slept in the end – walking time soon – hopefully not as cold as yesterday.

Dreamt about you – and how gentle and kind you are to me – it is so very touching and it makes me tearful when I think about it (again nice tears). No one has been quite like this to me before (hence the tears) and now I look back I see so much more of what you did without me even noticing properly at the time – and I feel ashamed about that – I am sorry. Sometimes there are really too many things in head and they crowd out the important things in life – and sometimes I can be a bit Asperger like too which does not help.

It all just reinforces to me what a very special person you are and that you now dominate my thoughts. I do not want to let you go, lovely one.

I love you x.

Slept very little so far – wishing it was us together. There is an ache in my heart for you that I cannot settle.

I love you x.

You are like the sun – warming my heart, brightening my day and nourishing my soul. You are like the air – helping me breathe, bringing life to my being and gently brushing across my cheek with your tender kiss. You are like the wind – flowing over my skin with your amazing touch guiding me in your direction. And in the midst of it all is your overwhelming beauty – and everything about you just binds me to you for as long as you want me.

I love you beautiful one x.

Hello my darling beautiful one x. I miss you so much – there is that visceral ache that tries to wear me down – but then I find somewhere quiet and close my eyes, talk to you, and there you are with me and I am whole again.

You complete my soul and you mend my heart – for so long I have hidden my heart away, I have been scared to let it go. And it has always been very much easier for me to hide behind my job and the persona that goes with that, and what people expect me to be (in and out of work) – so I have done just that. But somehow, you have come out of almost nowhere (with that dress!), and disrupted me so much that all I want to do is to give my heart to you. My head is awash with you in everything I do, and so, you have all of me.

The emotions that I feel for you are all encompassing – I am surrounded by and engulfed by your beauty and your love. I want to be yours – I can’t help it, I can’t control it – it feels wonderful and I absolutely do not want to let it (or you) go. I don’t want to, or mean to, stress your heart but I don’t know how to be honest with you and then hide this from you – so please let me beg forgiveness from you right now for this – I am sorry that I let you down here.

You are an extraordinary and a very beautiful (in every sense of the word) person.

I love you with all my heart x.

Wondering how you are – what you are doing? Want just to sit with you in my arms and to chat and to see that lovely smile.

I love you x.

I hope that you are ok – I miss you very much. Had enough of listening to things that I can’t really concentrate on and can only do so much walking without causing trouble.

Trying to think of how to have proper time for “us” – I think that this is important if we are to stay sane – and it is something that I would really like to do. I want to have time just to be “us” without constant distractions, interruptions etc and without us constantly looking over our shoulders. I want to get to know you better in every way so that my love for you can grow ever deeper. If one or more opportunities arise before we travel then that would be great, otherwise every day I look at the app counting down one-by-one!

I like to write to you – I don’t know if it helps you but it does help me. I feel just that little bit closer to you by writing some of what I feel – and that is a good thing (I hope). I would like to tell you so much more about me, just as I want to hear so much more about you. I want us to know and to understand each other. That is what makes “us” the very special thing that it is. It does though need help, time and space to grow – but as it does I will be very blessed to have you in my life and in my heart – and that will be truly lovely.

Please look after yourself for me when I am not there.

I love you beautiful one x.

Just felt an uncontrollable need to tell you ‘I love you’ x