Still counting down hours – wishing time away until we are together again. Can’t get you out of my head – not that I want to, of course. But still very frustrated by being apart.

Yet every time I think about how kind and thoughtful you are to me, how beautiful you are and the closeness we share, I am just overcome with waves of cascading all-encompassing love for you – and it is just the most magical feeling ever. But still I miss you so…

I love you beautiful one.

Passing the time – found the photo with that dress from that evening. Makes me smile and I was right the first time – it was a great dress and you looked fantastic! And looking back I realise what a great time I had just talking with you when travelling and once we were there. But sorry to stress you out so…!

I love you.

A bit wet – back from a walk in the rain – more talking to myself about you but it helps me. I am so impatient to have time with you away – together, the two of us alone, and away from regular life. Time to be us, to be friends, to be close, and to learn about and share with each other. Time to enjoy your smile and your laugh; time to be enchanted by you. Time to discover and define our path; and time to just love you.

I love you.

Sitting here thinking of you – talking to you in my head. Telling you how much I love you and how much I want to care for you; telling you how happy you make me feel when I am with you; and telling you how beautiful you are to me. Apologising to you for the muddled signals I give you because I am inept; for not being better at all of this – but I am trying… Reminding you (and me!) about travel plans – I am still checking daily!

All of this takes the edge from how much I miss you – the ache is there but temporarily dulled – and I so long to see you. Your message today helps too – the slightest thing brings some sunshine to me.

I don’t always know what to say to you – sometimes I think I ramble on – but somehow I need to release the emotion in me for you and even if only very imperfectly try to tell you what you mean to me.

I love you.

Happy New Year my lovely one – a year for “us” I hope. Although apart, in my head you were in my arms at midnight and you name was on my lips – a kiss for you. Going for a walk, longing to hear your voice and to feel the peace and contentment that time with you brings.

You brighten my world, showing me what I have never seen before. You disrupt me, changing everything, and you show me love in the most extraordinary way. And all of it, every single detailed bit of it is just astonishingly wonderful, beguiling and engulfing me at every turn. I am overwhelmed by you and it is good.

I love you.

Insomnia catching up on me but my last thought of this year and the first of next will be of you and the joy you bring me.

We are “us” and I could not wish for anything more because “us”, and you in particular, are, for me, the be all and end all of life.

I love you beautiful one.

Re-reading your email with tears running down my cheek. You are an amazing person and I adore you. As ever time ticks by since we were last together but at least I can focus on when next I will see you – and the thought of that helps to keep me sane. I miss you.

I so much wanted to be with you today – just gently caressing your skin whilst sitting and talking, learning about you – your likes, your dislikes, your thoughts, your hopes… I long to learn all of those things (and more) about you – and in spending that time with you to show you how much you mean to me.

You are absolutely lovely in every imaginable way and I find you utterly and completely enthralling.

I love you

Wishing I was with you – holding you; caressing your skin. Dreaming of your touch, your gentleness and your kiss. Wanting to keep you safe – beautiful one.

I love you.