Good morning lovely one – hope you slept better last night – have you eaten properly? (Someone needs to look after you!). Off for a walk at 6.30 – listening about the Poincare conjecture (the characterisation of the 3-sphere, which is the hypersphere that bounds the unit ball in four-dimensional space) – again really interesting (honest it is!).

Far more important (really really truly honestly) is you – I whisper your name to myself, I talk to you – I miss you. I am a bit tearful this morning because I let you down badly yesterday – I know I did – you talked about dignity and self-respect, and I should not have let us get to that point – I am very sorry.

You consume me, you disrupt my thoughts, you explode into everything that I do – I struggle to control my emotions over you. And then you sit there – the most exquisite and beautiful soul I have ever seen and you are kind and gentle to me, and I am completely dissolved. I would do anything you ask, be anything you want. I adore you.

Above all else, and far more important than anything else – I want you to know that you are an extraordinary person, a very beautiful woman and you are truly loved by me.

I love you beautiful one x.

You overwhelm my heart my beautiful one – I am deeply in love with you. Can’t sleep – missing you so.

I love you x.

A bit drunk – very lonely – in trouble – but actually in spite of all of that, very happy because I trust you to be my friend. I want to be yours.

Trying to think of some new ways to show you how I feel and what you mean to me – need to be sure that you know that “us” is paramount.

I love you my beautiful one x.

You are very beautiful.

(Thank you)

I love you x.

Thinking of you – you are so very gentle with me. Caressing you, loving you, being close – I don’t really know what to say to you – because it is the most loving experience that I have ever known – in my head the true personification of your absolute beauty. You are a very amazing and really special soul.

I want there to be an “us” – I need to help nurture “us” – I am not sure that I have done that today. Please understand and tolerate my ineptness – I will do better. And please have more confidence in yourself too – both of us would have looked after “us” today. It would not have unravelled as you feared – I know you. There will be a right time and a right place for “us” and when it happens it will be very magical.

I want you to know that you are loved and adored; you are a delight.

I love you x.

I love you x.

Having upset “everyone” today, you were worrying about upsetting me by the end of the day – but actually I think it was me who messed up. The drive I feel to be close to you is profound – but only because the love that drives it is equally profound. I have never experienced such strengths of emotion before and I do not want to give them or you up.

So I am sorry – not for being in love with you or for feeling such extraordinary feelings of closeness when intimate with you – but for not being as careful as I should be with your heart. I do try – and just need to try harder – and promise that I will do so.

I need you to be with me in “us” – I need to look after “us”, and I need to ensure that every minute of the day, you know that I love you. This string of (rambling!) messages helps we with that – and I hope that it helps you too.

I will miss you terribly over the weekend and will count down the time until monday morning.

I love you my truly very beautiful one x.

Hope your day goes well – will come and find you later.

I love you beautiful one x.