I cannot explain nor adequately describe in words how simply beautiful you are. The time spent with you today was magical and only serves to reinforce and deepen my love for you. Caressing your skin, your back, your gentle curves – being able to show you in so many ways how much I adore you – so much until today was just all in my dreams.

Again, we will find our own way through things together – and whilst I can’t pretend to know all of the answers by any means, what I can say is that nothing is pre-determined. Neither of us would have predicted where we are now – yet this is indeed where we are – and I for one, am blissfully happy that this is so. So, together, let’s see what the future holds for us.

I love you.

Please forgive my awkwardness and ineptness rather than believe that these are not the things that I want. In part it is the outpouring of emotion from me which in its desire to be heard tramples almost everything in its path; in part it is because I am still overawed by why you feel as you do and don’t really understand why you do what you do; and in part it is because it just takes a bit of getting used to.

But never, not once, has any of this been because I am unhappy or because somehow I have ended up in a place where I don’t want to be.

I am truly sorry (and frustrated at my ineptness) because what comes across to you is so very very far from the actual truth.

I love you, and know that I need to do more to show it.

Awake much of the night wishing I was with you. Wanting to hold you – to make things right. Replaying your voice over and over in my head, the softness of your skin, the beauty of your smile, the gentleness of your touch… – and all of the many delightful things that make you, you.

I love you.

When I am asleep, you are there; when awake, in everything I think and do, you are there – you are always in my thoughts and it feels wonderful – so very very good.

Don’t be sad – we will have our time.

Please please teach me – help me to know you in every way, better and more deeply every day, so that I can be the very best friend I can be for you, lovely one.

I love you.

The gentle lilt of one of your “hello”s today just enchants me – so utterly beguiling and captivating that that single word sustains me in my loneliness for days. To say “I have missed you” is just so weak and inadequate but with words it is perhaps the best I can do for now. How I long to see you so that I can show you how I feel.

But then my heart breaks when I hear the sadness in your voice – I am beside myself with how inept and ineffectual I feel. Again words just fail me. If only I could scoop you up in my arms to care for you and keep you safe, I would – I wish I was there for you.

You are so very beautiful in every way – I love you.

The light at the end of the tunnel (until I see you again) draws nearer and I feel better this morning knowing that you are soon to be within reach. You lift me up in so many ways and I so want to do the same for you – to be the person who cares for you and loves you, helping you to see how astonishingly special you truly are.

I love you beautiful one.

Another day almost gone – ever closer to you again. Little things make my heart skip – your steps on the stairs, an email in my inbox. You are truly lovely in every way, delightful and mesmerising. I am so very lucky to have you love me – though I know not why….

I love you.

No matter how far I walk the loneliness I feel without you persists – I whisper your name and it soothes me. I close my eyes – I kiss your neck; I hear your gasp as I caress your gentle curves; I feel the warmth of your body against mine. You are exquisite and I adore you. I could spend forever exploring your beauty.

You have turned my world upside down – the ‘order’ in my head has simply melted away, dissolved by your very essence. Simultaneously chaotic and peaceful, I am completely captivated by you and it is the most amazing feeling ever.

I love you.