Another walk and then some more jobs – always thinking of you. Wanting to hold you and to feel you safe up against me in my arms. Sat for a while (in the rain!) with my eyes closed thinking of caressing your skin, your neck and your back, and then hearing your gentle gasps – and it was simply absolute peace. Didn’t notice the rain, just happy to be there with you in my thoughts capturing my heart. Sat there for ages, was very wet at the end but just very very lovely.

I am looking forward to time together – it will be good for “us”. Whenever I am with you I am very happy so I know that we will have a wonderful time whatever we choose to do. Falling asleep with you in my arms will be the most beautiful experience.

I love you x

Done four out of six things but just found another one to do.

I am so happy that we spoke earlier – it has brightened my mood so much. But then you always do that – it is always quite magical and just reinforces what an extraordinarily special person you are. I am so looking forward to seeing you tomorrow.

Please just carry on being you – I don’t want anything else – for me you are quite perfect just as you are. So it is not about being on a pedestal and you have nowhere to ‘fall’ – because it is just about you being you.

I love you my beautiful one x.

Your voice is beautiful, enchanting, hypnotic, intoxicating and so much more. Thank you for letting me call – it makes the wait so much more bearable – but if I could, I would just come and find you right now….

I love you so very much x.

Back from walk – not as cold but very wet today so slowing drying out. This morning’s lesson was non-Euclidean geometry and Riemann’s hypothesis. This one I don’t understand other than very superficially but I don’t feel bad as no one has ever proven it yet. But it is interesting in that it underpins Einstein’s general relativity which I do mostly understand.

I hope that you slept ok. I think about you lots. And then lots more and then lots more. And it is really very good. At least now only one more day until I see you again and I have tons of work to do – 6 reports to assure, so time to get on with them. This weekend thing though is vastly overrated (unless of course we were together!) – I used to be so patient….

I wish that I could hold you in my arms right now – feeling you safe, close to me is such contentment.

I love you beautiful one x.

Hi, slept in the end – walking time soon – hopefully not as cold as yesterday.

Dreamt about you – and how gentle and kind you are to me – it is so very touching and it makes me tearful when I think about it (again nice tears). No one has been quite like this to me before (hence the tears) and now I look back I see so much more of what you did without me even noticing properly at the time – and I feel ashamed about that – I am sorry. Sometimes there are really too many things in head and they crowd out the important things in life – and sometimes I can be a bit Asperger like too which does not help.

It all just reinforces to me what a very special person you are and that you now dominate my thoughts. I do not want to let you go, lovely one.

I love you x.

Slept very little so far – wishing it was us together. There is an ache in my heart for you that I cannot settle.

I love you x.

You are like the sun – warming my heart, brightening my day and nourishing my soul. You are like the air – helping me breathe, bringing life to my being and gently brushing across my cheek with your tender kiss. You are like the wind – flowing over my skin with your amazing touch guiding me in your direction. And in the midst of it all is your overwhelming beauty – and everything about you just binds me to you for as long as you want me.

I love you beautiful one x.

Hello my darling beautiful one x. I miss you so much – there is that visceral ache that tries to wear me down – but then I find somewhere quiet and close my eyes, talk to you, and there you are with me and I am whole again.

You complete my soul and you mend my heart – for so long I have hidden my heart away, I have been scared to let it go. And it has always been very much easier for me to hide behind my job and the persona that goes with that, and what people expect me to be (in and out of work) – so I have done just that. But somehow, you have come out of almost nowhere (with that dress!), and disrupted me so much that all I want to do is to give my heart to you. My head is awash with you in everything I do, and so, you have all of me.

The emotions that I feel for you are all encompassing – I am surrounded by and engulfed by your beauty and your love. I want to be yours – I can’t help it, I can’t control it – it feels wonderful and I absolutely do not want to let it (or you) go. I don’t want to, or mean to, stress your heart but I don’t know how to be honest with you and then hide this from you – so please let me beg forgiveness from you right now for this – I am sorry that I let you down here.

You are an extraordinary and a very beautiful (in every sense of the word) person.

I love you with all my heart x.