Can’t sleep – will go for a walk soon – but your name is on my lips and the thought of you is just divine.

After that maths – if only you were here….!

I love you.

I am bereft without you – I miss your kindness and gentleness.

I love you

You are hear with me in my heart and in my head.

I love you.

Had too much to drink too quickly today I think – been told off for being drunk and pre-occupied – but can’t really put forward a reasonable argument as I am entirely pre-occupied with you. And I won’t apologise for that so it is easier to sit quiet and take it on the chin – I have been called far worse in the past. You are in my head and that is exactly what I want and what I need – your love surrounds me and I refuse to give it up.

Time for some maths I think along with thoughts of you in my head. I listened to a talk about Johannes Kepler and his laws of motion – quite extraordinary about what he figured out in the 1600s – makes me seem like a bit of a fraud especially as I think that fundamentally I am quite lazy.

Perhaps I am drunk but actually when I close my eyes I can feel your breath on my cheek and I can smell that morning fragrance which is definitely you. And it is very good – enthralling in a way that I have never imagined.

I love you beautiful one.

More walking – and talking to myself. Thinking about you and everything you mean to me. Hard to explain how important you are to me plus I would likely mess it up anyway. I used to know what to say and how to say it but now it all seems to come out wrong. I am very sorry.

I tell you things about me – and am very happy that I do so. You did not make me say anything this morning that I didn’t want to explain, as opposed to me not wanting to tell you. I had though already decided last night that I would tell you if you asked again – so it was fine. But sometimes things are a little hard to verbalise (you are a delicate soul in a way), and some bits are just really horrible. I do though trust you implicitly and absolutely so it is ok in my head to tell you but I don’t want to stress you out with it – I have never told anyone some of this before and it is only now that I do that I realise that it might be a hard thing to listen to – for me it is “normal” and I have lived with it for so long that this has never occurred to me before until you said that you were feeling emotional about this. I am sorry if I made you feel uncomfortable in any way.

I want us to be able to talk about anything – that is essential if we are to be “us” – so please do tell me how you feel, even if you are sad, and I understand that I may not be the cause (at least I hope not). I will always tell you anything you want to know about me – however profound or trivial – just ask away.

I need you, I want you, I adore you. I have overwhelming emotions for you – I love you. You are astonishingly beautiful to me – and, yes, I do want to be physically close to you. I recognise that I may well have said too much already in this vein, and if so please forgive me. Touching you, caressing you is indeed a truly peaceful thing – it makes me feel so calm. But of course I want you to touch me – you make me feel the most magical things with your fingers. I am just sorry that I mess things up when we are close.

You consume all of me – and it is a very good thing. With every ounce of me my overwhelming desire is to care for you, to look after you, and to love you. Everything else comes after that or follows on from that. So I am yours if you want me – as odd as I am (and I have no illusions as to what I am – hence why I don’t really get why you want me). And I most definitely want you.

It is now the weekend and I am therefore counting down the hours until I see you again on monday. Your love is so gentle and you show me such tenderness – I am a very lucky person indeed.

I love you.

I really struggle at times with telling you clearly and accurately how I feel – I know that I mess things up, either coming across incorrectly or upsetting you with carelessly phrased expressions of how I feel. I can only say that I am sorry – not one bit is intentional and I realise that I need to be more careful with your feelings too.

Please don’t feel upset about the conversation this morning. I trust you completely otherwise I would not have said anything at all – I am fine.

I feel your love and it helps me – I just want to be the same for you.

I love you very much.

I hope that you are not in trouble today – thank you for being quite so lovely and for being you. You are the most wonderful soul.

I love you beautiful one.

Bored of work, sat in a meeting thinking about you – much more exciting – so thought I would write.

Every time I look at you I am engulfed by waves of love for you. It makes concentrating somewhat tricky(!) but it is such a fantastic feeling. And then you smile and I am overcome completely. I want to be with you, talking and learning more about you every day.

I need to tell you too that I am ok about the going away thing – we only do it if we are both entirely comfortable with it, and that is exactly as it should be – so don’t fret on that one.

I will miss you this weekend but you will be in all my thoughts, whether awake or asleep, inside or out walking – I need you.

I love you.