Good morning – I hope that you slept well – looking forward to seeing that beautiful smile again today. I love you so very much – words just aren’t enough. x.

Hello my beautiful one – apart again at night – I miss you. Sweet dreams – I am thinking of you x.

Good morning sweetness – so happy to be seeing you today and plus I get to spend the night with you – so very special indeed. I am excited, so very happy and deeply in love with you – it will be very very lovely – thank you for agreeing to travel wih me – I love you my beautiful one x.

My beautiful one – the nights with you fill my heart with joy and sunshine. Opening my eyes to see you there; reaching out to find you, to rest my hand on your waist is just perfect – so much more than I ever imagined and perhaps the simplest definition of love – I love you, my definitely perfect one x.

Hello – a difficult night – lots of tossing and turning. I didn’t really sleep and am very tired this morning – just getting up now.

I am overwhelmed with sadness, a loneliness born from breaking the heart of the one that I love as I try to extricate myself from here whilst trying to protect my children as best I can.

Today I feel like I am infected – a contamination bringing nothing but anguish to those close to me. I feel such profound weakness in my soul – my desire to be kind to others constrains me, it hampers me, it rips me apart as I try to find a path for me and for us.

I will not stay here with her but I recognise that you may not be able to tolerate the pain of all of this. I would not hold that against you and perhaps the best place for an infection like me is a form of quarantine – isolate me and there will be no more pain for others.

You are OMG – I love you x. I am so very sorry x.

Can’t sleep tonight – worried about your heart and the gremlins – eventually they will wear you down and I don’t want that to happen. I can’t explain how much you mean to me. Life without you is unimaginable now for me.The peace and contentment that we share together – the happiness in the simplest of things – you amaze me. And now we are building our own memories and they are definitely perfect. For me, the joy of caring for you, of looking after you, of making sure that you are safe is unparalleled. I love you my darling beautiful one x. Please be safe x.

Good morning beautiful one – I hope we can talk during the day. I miss you my darling. Everything about you is pure delight – you smile, your gentleness, your care and consideration for me – I adore you. I yearn for you constantly – I want you in every way. You mesmerise me, you are enchanting and I love you in a way which is more than I have ever known before – magical. You are amazing x.

Lying here looking at the ceiling as always – imagining you wrapped up next to me asleep safe and sound – my beautiful one always – I love you x.