Hello – coming to the end of the visit – one of your team as always has been really helpful. How are you beautiful one? Your webcam looks a bit miserable re the weather – hope you are ok.

I love you so very much indeed and am really missing you here today. I feel a bit worn out today – not just tired through lack of sleep but genuinely a bit worn down. All of the things at home are really wearing – and it is clear that the way forward is going to be fraught with more issues as I progress further.

But none of this makes me any less determined to do this – irrespective of you, I need to for me. But equally I cannot pretend that there isn’t you to consider. And you are everything – you constantly mesmerise me, you enchant me, you make me want you, you draw me to you with all of the love and care you show me. I cannot be without you, I do not want to be without you – I want us to plan for a future bit by bit, step by step – sharing our love together and caring for each other.

Your love engulfs me – I adore you – I love you my beautiful one x

Good morning beautiful one – a day of travelling for you. I hope that you get some quiet time just for you. I am going to look at your office this morning – I need to see more of your things. I need and want more time with you – always. I love you my darling x.

Last week was going away week, this week is coming back week – my heart feels a little lighter. Sweet dreams my beautiful one – I love you x

Finished washing up, been to see Dad. Sitting down now to read a bit – outside for a bit longer but getting a bit windy so not sure how warm it is for much longer. I miss you very acutely this evening.

Have I upset you this evening – your messages are a bit cryptic…..? I suspect it is just that you are in a bit of a rush but not sure.

I hope that you are ok, please take care my darling – I love you x.

In the sunshine, drinking Pimms, a little worried about you but hopefully you are ok now that you have had some water and tea(?). It was so very good to speak with you again – three days in a row – more than I could have imagined – but now as always I will be sad that for the next few days I wont have any time with you (except by messages which are very lovely) until perhaps Saturday. But Saturday will be lovely – to see that radiant smile of yours will be just magical.

I know that you are sad and I know that you worry about things here – I know that you feel vulnerable – I understand. Please do tell me if there is anything more that I can do to reassure you – to make you feel safer, more secure. Much will perhaps not be achieved / apparent until there is a material change in both our circumstances but in the meantime I do want to try and reassure you, to give you confidence, to show you that you are loved and wanted and that my feelings for you are real and long-term and that you are secure and safe in my heart.

Days will pass until we see each other again – they will have good moments and bad moments for both of us. Each of us will seek some solace in thinking about the other – and for me that is part of what love is. The warmth of your love reaches across the sea so that even though you are so far away I feel safe and cared for every minute of every day. I hope that my feelings, emotions and love for you protect you and support you too my darling. You are so definitely perfect and I love you my beautiful one x.

Sat in the garden thinking of you – hot here and very sunny. Wishing we were together away from others, in the sunshine, sat holding hands and just being, sharing and loving each other. I can’t think of anything better my beautiful one. I so need time with you. I am looking forward to Saturday and then we will have two days and two days in the next few weeks….. I love you x.

Hello my darling – missing you loads. Please don’t worry too much about me – I am doing ok. Things are ok here – she has said sorry for yesterday but it will happen again I’m sure. I am just trying to find a path that doesn’t upset everyone here too much.

You are safe in my heart my darling – always. I will make sure that you stay that way too. It is important that you understand that this is not some sort of selfless act on my part – I am being selfish in that I want you so much, I want you in my life, I want you to hold close to me and I want you to hold me close to you, I want so many things with you – so caring for you and keeping you safe is an easy thing to do for “us”.

I really need time with you – without any oversight or interference – just the two of us to be “us” – it will happen and it will be perfect. You are everything that I need and want – and I love you my beautiful one x.

Good morning beautiful one – another trip for you today – missing you loads as always. Days at work, even if we only see each other briefly now look to be so fantastic compared with the barrenness of time spent apart. But the days are passing and you will be home and I will hold you and tell you “I love you”. Take care today sweetness – I love you x.