Hello – thank you for finding time and a way to talk with me today – I am so very happy. You are the most perfect soul – I love you.

I am so very sorry that you are having such a hard time. You sound like you have no say over what you do – and that simply isn’t fair. I too have experienced the piece of “put your phone away” only to have her spend time on hers thereafter – and it is wrong. I know that they are your friends and I don’t mean to speak out of turn but they are not looking after you. Rather they are in a way bullying you – constantly badgering and cajoling – I am not saying that their motives are not real and supportive but the way it all comes out is just unjust – and you do not deserve that. Not you. Not kind and gentle you. And to hear that story from you just breaks my heart sweetness.

I have been rambling a bit this week – I know that you will tell me off but I will say sorry, I need to. But like I said to you my darling, as much as I feel a pain in my soul for you, for as long as we are apart I want to feel that pain. And that is so, whether now or 10 years in the future or whenever….. that pain shows me that I love you, it shows me that you are the most important soul – the most amazingly delightful and beautiful woman – the person I want forever x.

Hearing your voice has made my day just perfect – my heart feels alive, happy, excited, enchanted, in love….. your laugh – truly beautiful, so very feminine – the lilting tones just mesmerise me – and my love for you just deepens further.

I am fine – I am ok truly – I am not sleeping quite right but I can’t but help miss you. I long to see you, to hold you, to kiss you, to make love to you – to show you that you are loved and wanted. I want to share me with you – to lie with you so that we are entwined, close, intimate and simply together – nothing could be more perfect.

I love you my darling – you are the love of my life – always, just you, only you, definitely perfect you. x.

I love you – hearing your voice, truly magical, enchanting, loving – everything that I miss so very much. I need you. I will write, I will ramble, but underneath it all I love you and I don’t ever want that to change – so I will put up with everything because I want the love of my life back with me my beautiful one x

Dashing about, missing you – I hope your day is going well – I love you my beautiful one x. So very much indeed.

Hello – once again I think I owe you an apology. My emotions without you here are a bit all over the place and some of the less good bits of my personality keep appearing. I don’t mean to be quite so sad at times and ultimately I know that you will be back soon and that we have so much to look forward to. I love you my beautiful one x

Good morning sweetness – somewhere different for you again today – I hope that the weather is good and that you have a really nice time. I miss you. I know that I keep telling you this and that it must be come across as being ever so repetitive – so I am sorry for that, but at the same time it is by far the overriding feeling that I have. The feeling of loss does not diminish as the days go back – the numbness that I feel in my inner core just sits weighing me down.

Thank you though for my messages – thank you for taking the time to let me know how you are – I need you to be ok. Please don’t though get yourself into trouble and please don’t let them give you a hard time or hassle you. I just want to care for you every day and to keep you safe with me.

I love you my beautiful one x.

Night #5 – missing you as always – waking and looking for you – somehow it is so much worse when you are far away. I love you x.

Difficult evening at times but all fine now – you and I in my thoughts tucked up I. My bed and happy with you here with me. I have felt very lonely at times today plus I upset you re work when all I was trying to do was secure a pay rise for you both – but I have learnt from this too.

How have you been – I hope that you are ok and actually I do want you to have a really nice time even though we are not together – every day your happiness is my first thought – I want to care for you and look after you every day my darling beautiful one – I love you x

Hello – sitting here trying to think of how I explain to you how I feel and what I want.

I want you – I would like to find somewhere where we could live together.

I know that we might not have many friends but then for me that is no change – I don’t have any. But you do and I know that they are important to you – so we need to be sure that anything we choose to do sits ok with you with respect to these friendships.

I want us to be free of oversight – I want us to be able to have time together or apart but because we choose that – not because it is enforced on us by others.

I want us to share with each other – to be able to care for one another without interference or stalking / watching. I want us to fall asleep together, to wake up together – I want you my beautiful one x