Hello – no parades (what am I going to do with you?!), no fuss so far – all ok here. But I miss you – terribly so. I hate this time apart my beautiful one, truly.

Today has been a lovely day – gentle and loving, spending some time together and talking a bit. We will find our path my darling – I desperately want you in my life, to share with, spend time with, and to love and care for.

You are definitely perfect in every possible way – beautiful inside and out – and I love you my beautiful one, eternally so x.

Very much in love with you my beautiful one. I am just drawn to you – like yesterday – I had to visit.

So in the same way I promise that in the week of the 29th – I will come and find you on that friday.

You are an absolute delight to me – I love you – you are everything to me x.

Hello in a meeting – very dull – deeply in love with you and so very much more interesting! You are totally mesmerising and I adore you my beautiful one x

Hello beautiful one – looking forward to seeing you properly today – yesterday was not enough by any means – I miss you so very much that it aches within me when I don’t see you. I love you my darling – can’t wait to hold you close. x.

Hello – dreaming of you and your gentle curves – waking and seeing you next to me, stretching out with my hand to find you – I love you x

Hello again – just me – better again – you help me no end even when we are apart. I hope that you have had a lovely evening with Jane.

I am longing to hold you, to feel you close and to have you rest on my shoulder. Time with you is never enough, but is always simply extraordinary. I need time with you, I really want to make love to you – to care for you and to protect you – you enchant me and it is simply heavenly – I love you my beautiful one x.

Hello – had a shower, no stalker, better still as time passes – sitting on my bed drying thinking of you. I miss you loads my darling – you are the most amazing soul, exquisite and delightful in every way. I love you my beautiful one x.

Hello beautiful one – I hope that you are ok and that you are having a lovely evening – I love you so very much. Although I did not spend much time with you today it was so very lovely to see you and I had to come and visit you – I am drawn to you my darling – you are everything. x

I am about to write something below which may stress you out somewhat but before you panic, I am fine – truly I am. This is not about headlines or anything and we are definitely OK – us is absolutely OK – you are the love of my life and I adore you, so don’t stress – but I need to write to you today.

I write because I want to share with you about me. I want my emotions to come out and this is part of that – I want to share with you. But you have to promise to understand this for what it is and I need you to be ok – to know that I am just writing to you because “us” is so amazing and because I trust you absolutely and I want to share. I do not do this to make you fret or stress (I know you will a bit – sorry) and I don’t need you to do anything other than tell me that you love me – nothing more, nothing less, just love me.

Earlier this evening, my head was about to explode, the noise was for a while uncontrollable, there are so many things in there rushing around, from one place to another, maths, finance, medicine, transplants, stuff Keith wants, circular arguments here, Dad, my children, and more. The only thing bringing me any sort of peace is you, your smile, your songs – and yet leaving you this evening just caused me acute stress, not sure why in that I have to leave you most evenings, but still it did. Profound emotions, a feeling of loss, I couldn’t control it….

I have been outside for a bit – sat in the play house because it is raining – just getting some quiet time and I have your songs with me. And I feel better now – because of you my darling. So I am ok – and getting better – and the noise is controlled now.

Please please please don’t anguish about me – I write because I want to share, not to stress you out, and there is truly nothing for you do – but please believe me when I say that I am ok. The reason that there is nothing for you to do is that you have already helped me – your love, your smile, your songs – it all helps me more than I can explain and I am (as is so often the case) overwhelmed by your loveliness and beauty.

So please please please – I need you to be ok with me, please love me – that is all, that is everything, that is perfect – “us” is all that I need, all that I want, all that I ever could have imagined and yet so much more amazing than that.

Thank you for loving me and thank you for helping me tonight with that wonderful all-encompassing love that you show me. You are definitely perfect – I want you – I love you my darling – you are my beautiful one, eternally so x.