Dreaming of you – wanting to lie intertwined together. I love you x.

Hello.

I don’t want you to think that my life is miserable because it isn’t – so I am just fine. So many things here are just fine too. The house is fine, the children are fine, my Dad is fine. But at the same time, you describe it best, I am invisible. For at least 10 years now, my view on things has somehow been invalid – so many times in the early years I complained about simply wanting an equal footing – to be treated equitably. And then as with so many things after a while you just stop complaining. If I do as I am asked then usually that is fine – and I do try to do that. But I am not psychic and it is hard to second guess someone.

There are so many things that I could write about but as I sit here thinking about them, actually I can’t be bothered because actually I don’t care any more – I used to, but no more – perhaps that is the issue – who knows? What I do know is that you are the love of my life…..

I am very lucky to have you – I love you x.

Sitting on my own now – happy with you in my head – will go and sit in the spare room shortly. Sometimes I wonder about life – not being able to do much right. Did everything that was asked of me this evening but somehow not right. But then at work everyone says “you do a good job” – how can two part of one life be so disparate? One never right – the other never wrong.

Listening to your songs – listening to some of my songs that make me think of you too. You are in my head and in my heart – exploring “us” with you – the most magical time I could ever imagine.

I love you my beautiful one x.

My heart yearns for you – your love comes through in every thing that you do and say. Today you were the epitome of beauty – you looked absolutely radiant. I was completely speechless this morning when I first saw you – tongue-tied and dumbfounded. And then sitting with you this afternoon – peaceful and blissful. How I miss you….

You are everything – I love you unconditionally and absolutely x.

To me you are everything, to me you are the air that I breathe, the sunshine on my face, the warmth that sustains me. Your love engulfs me, it consumes me, it delights me, it wraps me up in a safe place where I feel wanted for the first time in such a long time. I know that I am not perfect but I try to do the right thing.

You are the love of my life and I am so very pleased that I have found you and that you let “us” happen – you didn’t have to by any means and you have risked much for “us” – so thank you my beautiful one.

I love you x.

Listened to your music today on the way home – makes me miss you less. Thinking of you then, now, later, tonight asleep – the most beautiful woman I have ever known in every way. You mesmerise me. My feelings for you are so intense – almost impossible to control at times – the most intense sensations. So much of my life is up in the air now – but the one thing that brings me peace is you. And for that I am very grateful. My need for you is absolute my darling.

I love you my beautiful one x.

Today has been a nice day – not as much time with you alone but still seeing you and that wonderful smile of yours. Hearing your voice too. As with everything the more you have the more you want – and I want you lots and lots and lots….

You make me so very happy – and you love me and care for me both emotionally and physically and it is wonderful. I can’t always explain to you well what you mean to me – if you could see inside my head through all of the noise and see the love that I have for you, then you would know for sure that there is all-consuming love for you. It pervades me – every bit of me all of the time – and all there is in my head is you, beautiful you. My heart is yours.

I love you so very much x.

I miss you when I don’t see you – I love you so very much x.