Hello – at work – off to do some things soon as on-call. I am so very worried about you indeed. I feel extremely helpless and wish that we could speak. I can’t pretend to have answers to everything by any means but still I would listen and try and talk through things with you. You are so very far away and I don’t want you to be there all on your own and unsupported.

From here, through these messages – all I can do is to tell you that I love you my darling. You are simply everything to me and I want you more than anything. Please keep yourself safe whilst you are so far away. I want you back here with me.

I love you my beautiful one x.

Hello – back to work today for me – will listen to your songs on the way. No enthusiasm for anything other than thinking about you – I miss you and there is no respite from that pain until you are back. I am completely captivated and mesmerised by you – my heart yearns for you.

I love you my beautiful one x.

You sound very sad today – I wish I could hold you and tell you that everything is ok. I need to see that beautiful smile of yours but I suspect that it is hidden away at the moment behind your loneliness.

I want you to know that I cannot be without you. I love you – I desire you – I want to care for you – I want to be uncontrolled with you. My beautiful one, you are everything x.

night #4 – dreaming of you, your gentle curves, longing to hold you – I love you x.

I am very sorry if I have somehow made you feel as if you have done something wrong. If I have made you feel that you have personally hurt me then that was not my intent at all and I am very sorry.

You have never – not once – done anything to hurt me – you have only ever been the kindest and most loving soul. What has caused me pain – a deep visceral loss – is the fact of us being apart. Far worse than I imagined – but it has ripped into me, through me – making me feel bereft.

But this is just because I love you so very much – so how can I complain? I cannot be sad because you are the love of my life. I cannot be sad because your smile melts my heart instantly – I cannot be sad because the physical and emotional joy of being intimate with you is the most heavenly emotion I have ever known.

I do though miss you and I will do so until the moment you next walk into my office in just over a week’s time. I will also think about you constantly – literally so – and that is a very good thing. You bring me a happiness and a contentment that is profound – my love for you grows daily running through me completely – whenever we are apart I will feel a sadness, but I would never ever wish you to go away. I want you absolutely – I cannot be without you – for whatever pain I feel whilst apart is dwarfed by the joy of loving you.

I love you my darling – you make me complete by making “us” with me – and I want that to be so forever more x.

Just me and you here now – peaceful and content – waiting patiently for you to come back to me. In the meantime, I will think about a path for you and I walking towards the sunshine.

I love you my beautiful one x.

Going to my room shortly – I feel so much better on my own – all I really want is you. I am in awe of your beauty, your exquisitely feminine gentle curves – it all makes me uncontrolled for you – and being intertwined with you is absolute heaven. I love you x.

Take care my beautiful one – look after yourself – remember you are always in my thoughts, awake, asleep – you are the love of my life my darling x.