Hello beautiful one – you are almost home now – I hope that you slept well sweetness and I am just longing to see you – be safe on the last part of your journey. I love you x.

Your last night away – so close now to seeing you again – it is so very lonely waking, looking for you….. I love you x

Hello sweetness – one more night until you are home – I am so impatient to see you again. My heart is just yearning and yearning and yearning for you. I am cross too about the sun tan cream – they should look after you – it isn’t right that they don’t (sorry).

I love you so very much beautiful one – this trip has been really hard but almost over now….. x

You sound sad and / or lonely today – I will always try and message you – always. Sometimes I know that there are big gaps when I get snowed under but even then I am always thinking about you. I miss you so very much. I like writing messages to you even if you can’t reply. It helps me to let you know how I feel – you mean everything, I am beginning to get excited that you are coming back and am so looking forward to Saturday.

I read your messages over and over again sometimes so that I can better understand you – I want to share with you and part of that is communicating better with you – sometimes (perhaps even quite often) I don’t think that I am very good at that.

I want you to feel loved and wanted, to feel cared for. I love you my beautiful one x.

Watching you coming home – hurray! – I love you my beautiful one. So many intense emotions in my head at times this week for so many reasons but underneath it all is your love for me and my love for you and with those combined I feel safe however turbulent things are. Sometimes I need to find space – perhaps in the garden at 2am with the stars – but that is OK. You are coming home – coming back to me (I hope) and as promised I am here waiting for you – always.

I love you my darling – you are everything and I am not giving you up x. Be safe coming back x

Good morning beautiful one – another day travelling for you – I hope that the weather is good. Nothing exciting here – more work, usual things. But tomorrow you come back home and that will be lovely – and then Saturday I can see you I hope – and that will be amazing. I just long to hold you – every day my impatience grows, but soon my darling…..

Please take care today – please be safe – I love you so very much x

Woke with a start – dreaming about you and I on our first trip that day in the bar, simply being together – I miss you beautiful one – sweet dreams x

Trying really hard to think of the words to explain about me to you. So very tired and yet I cannot sleep.

Sometimes I cannot cope with you – not because you upset me in any way or because you hurt me but because you provoke in me intensity of emotions that I have never experienced or known before. Today has been unbearable – inside me is volcanic turmoil and pain. I want you, only you. I want my children to be safe too. But I have no idea what is happening in her head.

I recoil when she tried to touch me – I just want you – anything else is a betrayal.

And then I am so very jealous – I want time with you – together x

Please know that all I want in life is you – and I cannot bear to have to live through this all again – it is so very hard indeed. Please be ok my darling – I love you so very very much x