Hello – I hope that you are ok and that you did not get into trouble for letting me call. I miss you my darling – it was so good to speak with you again.

I have one more call to do today with the US then time to go home – again like yesterday feeling a little worn out. But actually today so much happier for having spoken to you. All I want to think about is Saturday, then next week with some time with you for two nights and then again the following week. Florida will come I know and we will manage that – but for the moment I need to look for the positives – and that means the beautiful soul that you are and all of the happiness that you bring to me.

I want you in my life my darling – I cannot imagine things without you, life would be catastrophic – please know that you are everything to me. I want to care for you, protect you, share with you and love you – you are my beautiful one x.

Hello love of my life – I miss you so. It was lovely to speak with you this morning. I know that you are finding things hard as am I but please don’t get too sad / frustrated with all of this and especially so with other things from work. You are not being forgotten.

I do hope that you are having a good day – that your trip is good and that you are enjoying the sun. Every day now is simply counting down the time until you are back – I am constantly looking at the clock wishing away the hours and they pass so slowly. I am so looking forward to Saturday – time with you, being close, being loving, simply being together – just heavenly – I love you my beautiful one x.

Good morning – I hope that you slept well – another trip for you today, I hope that you enjoy it. I miss you so much beautiful one but now the days are ticking by until we are together again. Please be safe on your trip – I will message later. I love you my darling – the love of my life is coming home soon x.

Night #9 – ever closer now – woke up looking for you and you are not here – I love you my beautiful one x.

Lying here thinking of you – listening to your songs with you filling every thought in my head. You are amazing, extraordinary – in everything that I think of you are there – sensible things, silly things, work things, home things, dull things, exciting things – all of them loving things with you at the heart of it all.

I owe your fiends an apology – I have been unfair and rude about them – I am sorry. I don’t know them well enough to comment and my concern for you has perhaps led me to be overly harsh about them. So sorry.

You are the love of my life – you make me intensely happy – your messages brighten my day – I love you my darling beautiful one – take care coming home – I need you x

Missing you loads – just sat here alone with you in my head and that is very lovely. Watching you slowly coming ever closer to home. Thinking about life, circumstances etc – trying to find a path through without hurting people as much as I possibly can. I feel so responsible for so many people and their happiness – it sometimes is a bit daunting.

I love you – so very much. I want you, I am very jealous of the time that others have with you – especially today. I hate it when I hear of others being mean to you. Neither are very attractive qualities / behaviours of mine (once again sorry) – but I am pleased that at least one of them seems to be showing genuine concern for you. I hope it is real – and as always I am sorry if I speak out of turn.

I cannot convey to you what you mean to me – whatever words I know, they simply aren’t good enough – nowhere close at all. My heart yearns for you in a way I had never imagined or could possibly have anticipated. I have never felt like this before – nothing before has ever caused me such a sense of loss as your travelling has done. A profound and visceral sense of loss, which just goes on and on and on – just some transient respite when I speak to you but then it comes back so acutely.

I want you – the very beautiful and delightful you – the truly wonderful and tender you – the astonishingly feminine and desirable you – the love of my life x. Thank you for wanting me x.

Hello – coming to the end of the visit – one of your team as always has been really helpful. How are you beautiful one? Your webcam looks a bit miserable re the weather – hope you are ok.

I love you so very much indeed and am really missing you here today. I feel a bit worn out today – not just tired through lack of sleep but genuinely a bit worn down. All of the things at home are really wearing – and it is clear that the way forward is going to be fraught with more issues as I progress further.

But none of this makes me any less determined to do this – irrespective of you, I need to for me. But equally I cannot pretend that there isn’t you to consider. And you are everything – you constantly mesmerise me, you enchant me, you make me want you, you draw me to you with all of the love and care you show me. I cannot be without you, I do not want to be without you – I want us to plan for a future bit by bit, step by step – sharing our love together and caring for each other.

Your love engulfs me – I adore you – I love you my beautiful one x

Good morning beautiful one – a day of travelling for you. I hope that you get some quiet time just for you. I am going to look at your office this morning – I need to see more of your things. I need and want more time with you – always. I love you my darling x.