Hello beautiful one – in between calls now and then going home about 6.30 or so. Things there are not happy but I am personally ok. Nothing specific just general frostiness, and as always it is all apparently my fault. And truly I am ok because actually the most important focus for me by far is you. I cannot think of anything other than you – not that I am trying to – but you do just consume my every thought.

Whatever I am feeling here is dwarfed by your anguish – and you are alone and far away which compounds things massively. I want time with you; I need time with you. I need to see your face and your smile – to hold you close, to caress your back. And then we need time alone to explore and love each other.

The more time I spend away from you – the more I realise what you mean to me. I can’t explain everything at all but I do know that you have captured my heart completely and that you are very special indeed – a delightful and very beautiful woman with whom I want to share without any boundaries.

I love you beautiful one x.

Off to do a proper job, then calls with the US and others. I love you my beautiful one and I am missing you very badly indeed x.

Hello my darling – you will be getting up soon I suspect – I hope that today proves to be a better day for you than did yesterday. I miss you so – off to another meeting – a bit late – all fine here at work, just the usual stuff.

I don’t know how to describe to you how much you mean to me. I need to see your face and tell you I love you x.
(Will write more later x)

In my office – waiting patiently for you, listening to your songs, just you in my heart. I love you x.

The more I sit here and think about you and then read what you wrote yesterday the more sad and desolate I become. Please be ok my darling, please keep yourself safe – I want you so very much and I really need you back here with me. Just as you said that you had fallen for me, so I have fallen for you – we are entwined now and I cannot be me without you.

I love you my beautiful one x.

Hello beautiful one – I hope that you are sleeping and getting some rest. I miss you loads and am constantly thinking about you. Yesterday was clearly a terrible day for you and I am really sorry that that was so. Did anything specific set it off?

Your messages sound so distressed – I could not sleep and am really really struggling with the helplessness of it all. You are so very precious to me, such a wonderful soul, so very loving and beautiful – and I can do nothing at the moment to help you. I am sorry.

We need to talk when you are back to work through some decisions for both of us. I trust you absolutely to make the right choice for you but none of the choices are easy ones and irrespective of what you choose you need help and support. And that is very hard when you are so far away.

I miss you terribly – still, painfully slowly counting down the time until next week. Longing to hold you close to me my darling, keeping you safe. I love you my beautiful one x.

Hello – at work – off to do some things soon as on-call. I am so very worried about you indeed. I feel extremely helpless and wish that we could speak. I can’t pretend to have answers to everything by any means but still I would listen and try and talk through things with you. You are so very far away and I don’t want you to be there all on your own and unsupported.

From here, through these messages – all I can do is to tell you that I love you my darling. You are simply everything to me and I want you more than anything. Please keep yourself safe whilst you are so far away. I want you back here with me.

I love you my beautiful one x.

Hello – back to work today for me – will listen to your songs on the way. No enthusiasm for anything other than thinking about you – I miss you and there is no respite from that pain until you are back. I am completely captivated and mesmerised by you – my heart yearns for you.

I love you my beautiful one x.