Hello beautiful one – going to sleep – ok here – a bit of ranting provoked by a “no” to a “share my bed” question. I asked “do you want a proper relationship with me and if so why suddenly now? Or do you want the status quo as it was?” After a bit of going round in circles the answer was “I just want things back how they were – everything was just fine and I don’t understand why you have changed”.

Just reinforces what I thought – not about me but instead about lifestyle etc.

You are my everything and I am so very much in love with you beautiful one x will call soon x.

Night #8 – I love you – it is so very hard being apart like this. Whenever you see this note please know that you will be in my thoughts always. Sweet dreams beautiful one x.

Yet again good morning for you – bed time for me. Lying here dreaming of you in my arms. The two of us, naked, entwined, close, loving, resting, caring for each other.

Soon I hope I will be able to call – to hear that lilting voice – the “hello”, the “thank you”, even perhaps the “what is this?” – all of that is my delightful you, the exquisite and amazing you that I long for – the simply heavenly you that I care about above all else so bringing joy to me each and every day.

I love you my beautiful one – I want you absolutely x.

Hello my darling, the 7th night – I feel alone without you. I know that you are having a really difficult time – in the midst of that please don’t ever feel that you are anything other than so very very perfect for me. It is ok to feel sad, lonely and perhaps at times jealous. It is ok to be tearful. All of these emotions are about how much you love me. In the same way I feel the same about you – lonely, jealous, sad, tearful ….. and all of these emotions are about how much I love you. Las Vegas, the cruise, Happy Thursday – every time I become consumed by jealousy – and it is so very hard. As jealous as I am, as much as I hate every minute of it all – I never ever ever want you to have a bad time – rather I always want you to have a really really good time and to enjoy yourself – but I am still jealous…..

I want you – the definitely perfect you who fills my soul with happiness and joy – the beautiful you who cares for me like no other ever has nor ever will – I love you x

Good morning my darling – lots of conversation here, little ranting thankfully. Safely in my new room – just me – door locked and quite happy thank you. Dreaming of you – thank you, thank you a thousand times for your picture. Your smile is in my heart – but your picture is lovely and like so many things brings me just that bit closer to you x.

My need for you is insatiable – physically, emotionally I am so drawn to you – all those astonishingly unimaginably wonderful emotions that you provoke in me – I am so very much in love with you x.

Night 6 – thinking a lot about our conversations and about caring for you properly. In everything I do or think you are paramount – you have to come first with me, with “us”. All I want constantly is for you to be looked after – not smothered, but genuinely cared for. Please help me to learn how best to care for you.

You are my beautiful one – I love you x.

Good morning for you – I will sleep soon – but I need to write and tell you what you mean to me.

Every day I think about you constantly; every day my love for you deepens; every day I just long to be with you. I need you to feel loved and wanted; I need you to feel excited and adored; I need you to feel that love finds a way whatever – with us sharing with each other side-by-side.

The words “I love you” are simple, pure and uncontaminated, yet so inadequate to properly explain how I feel – but my darling beautiful one, I do love you absolutely so x.

Night #5 – days passing slowly. Every day though brings us closer together and I can’t wait until we spend the night together again. Lying next to you, reaching out and finding you there is just perfect. I never imagined that anything could be quite so overwhelmingly wonderful x.