In the toilet – part way through a difficult conversation but all the time I am thinking of you – so had to write my darling. You are simply perfect in every way, enchanting, mesmerising, delightful, desirable, sexy, exquisite, beautiful and always always so very kind and thoughtful. You are safe in my heart always – I love you x.

Hello beautiful one – have you eaten your tea? Are you eating and drinking properly? I worry about you so very much. My whole day has been spent thinking about you – every day is like that, and then every night too. The beginnings of some conversations here again this evening so I will write more later but I am fine now and I will be fine later too – I just need to keep reinforcing the situation here.

I love you beautiful one x.

Thank you the time today to talk – I miss you so very much. There is so much for us to talk about going forward but I don’t have any clear answers in so many ways nor do I know exact timelines – but it was good to discuss just that little bit more today for the first time. We have to do this together step by step slowly looking after each other.

I love you more than I can explain – the words are so ‘thin’ at times in terms of conveying meaning – and certainly don’t convey the intensity of emotion that I feel for you – not even close. Today I feel that part of me is missing – lonely and sad, subdued, incomplete. And then hearing your voice – and you laughing is so uplifting – magical. And then of course the lilting “thank you” – and my heart melts.

I also need to apologise about the direct question I asked you – not because the sentiment of it was wrong, it did need to be asked, but because it came out very badly and clearly stressed you. I am not neutral, and I need to be sure that you are doing the right thing for you, because that has to be paramount.

We need more time together – I will try to make that happen – you enrich my life, you make me so very happy – I love you my beautiful one x.

Hello – shower time now – hope you are ok – then I am off to do some jobs – will write more later but just need to remind you that you are not forgotten – never in fact my darling – I love you my beautiful one x.

Hello – hope you slept a bit more after messaging last night, hope the tears are settling a little – I wish I could hold you close. I love you darling – I miss you. Some work to do now but I have that smile of yours in my head and it soothes me. I love you x.

Hello beautiful one – I adore you – I miss you. Walking soon to get some fresh air and think of you and that smile – remembering our very happy times together and looking forward to new ones too. I love you with everything that is me – you are the love of my life x.

Hello – as you said we had a taste of paradise… and I miss you so – where are you when I wake my beautiful one? Please take care and know that I love you always x.

You mesmerise me – every day in every way and I belong to you – I just need to make that so – so that we never need to be apart – I love you x