Shower time shortly – a somewhat difficult last hour or so but no real unpleasantness at least – still as usual mostly it is my fault.

After shower I will be in my room lying there thinking of you – and I will be happy. I hope that I give you confidence in how I feel about you. I worry that some of the distress you feel at times is because you feel vulnerable because of me. I need to talk with you a little more to help me understand if there is more that I can do. I want to do everything I can to look after you and your heart.

You are so very precious and special to me – I must make sure that I never ever let you go. I love you my beautiful one x.

Bought more red wine – generated a bad response here – so it was tipped away (not by me). Then I went to buy some more and this time I kept it so that I could drink it – which I am. Otherwise things here have been ok for most of the day but I wonder if they will get a bit worse soon.

You make me smile – you make me happy – please be safe and please be happy.

I love you my darling beautiful one x.

Wishing we were together, I have a real urge to be sitting with you holding your hand. Wanting to feel you wrapped in my arms, just chatting.

Wishing we were going on holiday together – wanting us not to have oversight – wanting us to be in the sunshine so that every day I can be going home with you. I too don’t need much in a home – just you – and everything else after that is pretty much irrelevant.

In my heart I belong to you – and only to you – I just need to make it real – I love you my beautiful one x.

Hi – the more I think about last night and how distressed you were, the more my heart aches. I simply can’t bear to see you in distress – it just rips through me. I, we, need to talk a little more some time about a path to the sunshine and what it might mean – I don’t think that either of us can manage to carry on like this in the long term – it is at times disablingly painful, and plus, life should just not be like this – we should just be together and happy because we are together – nothing more, nothing less.

All I do, every hour of every day, day after day, is think about you – all I want is you – all I desire is you – and you are everything. You make me complete, content, aroused, excited, happy and so much more. I could not wish for more in my life, I never anticipated that “us” would be quite so amazing – and so I am very fortunate. I have found the love of my life – and you are she – delightfully definitely perfect in every way and I love you x.

Hello – finished rowing – wondering how you are.

Thinking about how much you mean to me and how I long to be with you – trying to understand a little more about the feelings I have for you. Have also been reading your emails and your messages – trying to understand you a little better. Thinking about what you tell me re how I should phrase things – trying to be better for you in every way that I can be.

Thinking about us being close and the magical feelings you bring to me; thinking about your absolute beauty and how wondrous you are – and wanting to learn more so that I don’t make you feel unwanted, or confused, or distressed, whether about emotional or physical things.

Just profoundly in love with you – growing deeper every day my beautiful one x.

Doing some rowing soon with your songs – morning activities with you when we are away mean I need a stronger lower back.

I can’t help but think of what a beautiful woman you are – your gentle curves, your soft skin – all so very delicate and feminine – absolutely enticing and so very very heavenly to behold.

You are everything I could imagine and then so much more in every way. Please be safe today and take care – enjoy yourself my darling – I love you x.

Hello – going for a short walk with your songs – need some space (I am fine though). I am really missing you – wanting to hold you close and to kiss the side of your neck; wanting to feel the brush of your breath on my cheek and have you rest your head on my shoulder. Dreaming of that shower next week….

I love you my beautiful one x.

Hello beautiful one – still working but almost done for today – missing you loads. Hope you are doing ok – actually I genuinely hope that you are enjoying yourself.

You are so very lovely – and when I look back at this last week and how kind, loving and gentle you have been towards me I am just overwhelmed. On thursday so many times you asked to help and it is truly touching – no one else has ever shown me such tenderness.

Every morning when I wake with you, my heart just wants to burst – lying with you in the night, waking and finding you there, being able to rest my hand on your gentle curves, on your waist, letting my love flow through my fingers to you – these are the simple but most wonderful feelings and emotions in life. I have waited so very long in life to find this with you – and I am not letting go – you are the most unique soul.

I am very jealous that I am not there with you – I love you my darling – with everything that is me x.