Hi – will be home in about 10 minutes – no ditches! I want to talk with you about so many things – none negative (I promise) – just thinking about a path to the sunshine. You mean everything to me – I need you, I want you, I love you my beautiful one x

Hi – nothing to do with your phone – it is a problem with the website – don’t worry beautiful one x.

I can see your message but now I am not sure that my replies are coming through either – will aim to sort later – I am fine – thank you for your message – it was as expected. You are very kind as always – but please don’t ever think that your love is some sort of second best consolation prize. Your love is the most amazing and extraordinary love I have ever known – it is and will never be second best to anything – you are truly exquisite and I love you my beautiful one x.

Hi – walking in the dark (only just dark actually) – no ditches I promise. And I very much in love with you so that makes me feel very good. I miss you more than I can explain – I want you my darling – I love you x.

PS will send a message when I am back – I will be fine – truly. x.

Hi – something wrong with the messaging website I think – nothing coming to my phone but I can see through the web app – I suspect it will sort itself out.

I am in trouble here – it would seem that Mother’s Day was not quite the extravaganza expected – in the usual way. And as usual it is my fault.

So I will take it on the chin as always – and then go for a walk in a bit – I am fine though (truly).

I miss you – I love you so intensely, my beautiful one x

Hi I can see that your messages are not coming through – not sure why – I will send one as if I were you from here. I will reply though separately.

I love you beautiful one x.

I am sat here thinking of you – you mesmerise me, you entice me, you excite me, you care for me, you love me – I adore you, I want you, I dream of you, I yearn for you, I love you my darling.

I feel lost without you – having you be so far far away is so very hard – constantly wondering how you are…

I feel so very jealous too – I want to be the person with you – the person falling asleep with you, the person waking up with you, the person sharing with you. I try not to be jealous but I can’t help it – my desire to be with you just overwhelms me at times.

You are everything in my life now and my life needs to change so that you and I can be “us” together in the sunshine. I love you my beautiful one x.

Every time I think about how much love you show me, I become a bit overwhelmed. You are the kindest soul – and so I feel very sad at times when I think of you being ignored. I can’t imagine ignoring you – if it were entirely in my gift I would spend all of my time with you. Time with you is so very precious and is pure contentment – we need time together, just “us”, relaxing and truly just “us” without any interference or intrusion from others. I want to talk with you about our future, I want us to build and share our own memories, I want “us” to grow, to be even greater than it is now as you said in your message last night.

For now though, I want you to be safe this week – I want you to be as ok as you can be, looking after yourself, (selfishly) for me – because I cannot imagine being without you now. You are in my heart and in my soul, safely entrenched, woven into my very being. My every thought relates to you – I am engulfed by a passion towards you which consumes me fuelling the intense emotions that I have for you, the love of my life.

Emotionally and physically you make me complete – you are exquisite – I cannot adequately describe the deep and profound love that I feel for you and which grows stronger every day, day by day – you are forever my darling beautiful one x.