Hi going home soon – missing you – will write more later. Sat here for 5 minutes with my eyes closed in the quiet – hearing your voice and seeing you smile – the radiant one that illuminates my life. I love you beautiful one x.

I hope that you are ok – I really worry. You are quite fragile in so many ways. Please take care, please be safe, I absolutely need you to come back to me – I love you x.

Hello – I have been thinking about what we talked about on the train last night. I cannot understand how someone could ignore you – it breaks my heart to think of that and for you to feel unwanted and unvalued is so very wrong. I don’t mean to speak out of turn so please forgive me if I am doing so but I cannot help it. You are beautiful in so many ways – physically and emotionally; you are loving and caring; you are kind and gentle. So for someone not to value you is, to me, unfathomable.

I cannot tell you enough – you are truly beautiful, and for me you are everything.

I love you my darling x.

Sat in a meeting – my turn to daydream about you. Thinking of our trip abroad and our time together – learning about you, enjoying being with you building our own memories outside of work. Talking all day on the plane, all afternoon in the bar and so much more – fun, enticing, exciting, tender, arousing, peaceful – heavenly.

Every day I pinch myself – just to check that this is real. Now we are apart, you can’t tell me off (!), so I am free to say once again – I do not understand why such an amazing and wonderful woman like you would want me. I do not understand what I bring to you at all. But I do absolutely trust you – I do believe you – I just don’t understand it. But every day you show me even more love and affection than I could possibly have imagined and sometimes that just reinforces my feelings of “why me?”. And what accentuates it is the fact that you are so very different in the way that you treat me compared with any other woman I have known.

So I need to say “thank you” – thank you for loving me, thank you for being so kind, thank you for caring and worrying and thank you for letting me love you. You are mesmerising and enchanting and I am utterly captivated by you.

You are exquisite and I love you so very much indeed x.

Time spent with you is so very precious – it is peaceful, it is loving, it is exciting, it is delightful. You are the kindest soul – I don’t quite recognise the description that you gave of yourself this morning – to me you have always been the kindest soul. But I am pleased that whatever you feel that you have become, that you are then happy to be that person, and if in any way I have played any part in that change then I am all the more pleased. But the person that I see in front of me is definitely perfect just as she is as far as I am concerned – so please just carry on being you with me to make “us”.

I love you my beautiful one x.

Sitting here now, aching for you, just reinforces to me what you have come to mean to me over the last few months. I had never anticipated that loving you would bring such intense feelings and such emotional and physical closeness quite as much as it has, nor how quickly this would happen. Our conversation today around intimacy is just one aspect of this – for me it has been a revelation in so many ways, learning and sharing with the most beautiful woman I have ever known. And there is so much that I want to share with you going forward on our path together.

I want you – I want to belong to you and only you.

I love you my darling beautiful one x.

There are no words to convey how I feel today – I miss you, I love you – all not enough. The most magical and close morning – heavenly. And now a feeling of being bereft and lonely. I long for you, I yearn for you.

Please be safe and come back to me – you are my darling beautiful one x.

Hello – a beautiful morning – there will be many more in the future – I will be waiting… I love you x.