My heart yearns for you – I am so pleased that you are coming home my darling x.

Writing messages – back and forth – I love hearing from you. I always look for anything that brings me closer to you and this is so very lovely. I have never written like this to any one before. And no one has ever taken the time to write anything loving to me – and yet you do all the time. Yet another example of the unique richness of the love that you have for me and show me every day. I am overwhelmed in every way, every day by you – you are the most amazing woman – unique, beautiful, precious and exquisite. I cannot be without you any more – I know that for sure.

I love you my beautiful one x.

Lying here listening to your songs – so in love with you. I have been talking to you, closing my eyes to see that smile and hear your voice. So many happy memories in such a short time – but still a need for more for “us”. I love you my beautiful one x.

You make me glorious, but I still need more practice with you – I need to learn how to make you feel the same intense ecstasy that you produce in me – and then more. No boundaries ever. x

I need to draw patterns on your skin – gently, quietly, together, holding you and drawing. Playing with you delicately, circles, spirals, triangles, and more tracing my love through my fingers onto you, through your skin into your being. I need time with you – lying together naked – drawing and exploring your curves in awe of your beauty – I love you x.

Hello – thank you for my messages and your love – you are such an enchanting soul with what you write to me. You mesmerise me, you captured my heart a good while ago and yet every day you make it leap with joy with what you say and tell me. And then you show me and make me uncontrolled for you. Never before have I been uncontrolled with anyone yet with you it is the most natural and loving thing in the whole world – sharing me with you without any boundaries, emotionally and physically – this is all that I want – and that will make “us” truly magical. You make me complete and I love you x.

I listened to your new song – Grant Gustin – Running Home to You – it has taken me 20 mins to stop sobbing – I want you to belong to me if you will have me beautiful one – I love you x.

Hello – been thinking about you a lot today – and “us” – wondering what the future holds. Thinking about what you mean to me – what that means for me here. Thinking about you and your circumstances – thinking about steps on a path to the sunshine – thinking about so many things.

Reflecting on my dreams and my hopes for the future – wondering what yours are too. Thinking about how you are with me, how we are together. Thinking of the love we share, the happiness we share, the intimacy we share. Thinking of the most heavenly feeling of loving someone absolutely – intertwined in your arms, physically joined together – emotionally the most profound and intense emotions running through me, seeing the extraordinary tenderness that you show me every minute of every day.

Dreaming of you – always you, eternally you. Falling asleep with you in my heart, waking with you there. Wanting to fall asleep with you for real too – the most amazing memory of the beautiful feminine gentle curve of your back, waist and hips – that is engraved in my heart forever – you take my breath away. If the essence of you is not the definition of pure beauty then I do not know what is for you are definitely perfect to me.

Thinking about the pain of last week – watching your plane getting further and further away. Wave after wave of intense nausea ripping through me. I have never felt such a loss – truly extreme in every way. I cannot live with pain like that forever.

So much to think on – much to understand. But how my life has profoundly changed for the good with you in it – how much better do I feel with your love engulfing me – how much do we share of things that I had never imagined were even possible to share with another soul. And so I will not give you up. I will not be without you – I love you, you are everything. I need and want a path to the sunshine – to hold your hand by my side, sharing, caring, protecting and loving without reservation. You are eternally my beautiful one x