Hello – today has been a funny day.

I cannot begin to tell you how worried I was about you – I could not sleep last night because of your texts. And then this morning you broke my heart with the pain that you were feeling. Last night I wanted to come and find you and to take you away and keep you safe – how little did I know that part of your pain was caused by me last night – I am so very sorry.

Bit by bit though today things have improved – I hope that I have helped a bit – I want to care for you, I want to protect you. I have always had the best motives (truly, always for you) but sometimes things come out wrong like yesterday. I am so very sorry. You tell me that I am good at what I do – like my talk yesterday, but I really really don’t feel like that. I feel a real fraud. I see your pain from yesterday and I would instantly trade all of my apparent professional success for a modicum of ability to properly care for you. Caring for a beautiful soul like you brings me real joy – my job, it is not real, it is all illusion, public relations etc – I don’t do a proper job. You do, you guide, you manage, you create – all I do is talk.

And this afternoon – you take my breath away – reckless – perfect. I do not know how to explain to you the intensity of my emotions and feelings for you. Today was one of the most loving moments of my whole life – and all because of you. You are exquisite – amazing – extraordinary. My heart is yours.

On my own, listening to your songs – thinking of your smile. Overwhelmed by you and so very deeply in love with a very very beautiful woman.

You are the love of my life – you are my darling beautiful one – and I love you more than you can imagine x.

I know you can’t talk and that is just fine – I need you to know that my heart is yours and that moments shared with you like the time this afternoon are truly truly enchanting – the stuff that dreams are made of.

You are simply exquisite – so breathtakingly beautiful and my heart yearns for you.

I love you my darling beautiful one x.

I am very sorry that you have been having such a hard time recently – and I am truly truly sorry for those times when it has been me making you anguish. It is though so very good to hear you laugh and to hear you talking of the magical moments we have shared.

I am not leaving – you have nothing to apologise to me for – you are everything to me. As I said right at the beginning I need to learn about you so that I can be the very best person for you. In some ways I am better than before but by no means what I would hope and want to be for you. But trying…

I love you my beautiful one x.

You are looking a bit brighter – sometimes you are quite fragile in so many ways. I just want to keep you safe.

I love you my beautiful one x.

You are the love of my life – I am sorry if I did not care for you enough yesterday – it came out wrong but the motives were good – truly.

I love you my beautiful one x.

You look a little subdued today – it makes me sad – I love you and I worry…. x

Still not sleeping – so up early, wanting you – looking forward to time with you today – I love you more than I can describe x.

Can’t sleep – thinking of you – your gentle curves – exquisite x