Thank you for being patient with me – thank you for loving me. I want you so very much – it is very hard to explain this properly. I love you my beautiful one x.

Thank you for our time – another lovely day – a bit fractured but still “us” and working through feelings and thoughts. I need you beautiful one because I love you, and not for any other reason. The only reason why you quieten the noise in my head is because the love I feel for you and the love that you show me drown out everything else.

I am looking forward to tomorrow – I adore you.

I love you my beautiful one x.

Every day I see you and that is a good day – when I don’t, then it is not a bad day because I still have you in my heart and in my thoughts and dreams, but it is a less good day. And the days when we have time alone unwatched and entwined are perfect days. These are the ones I long for.

I love you my beautiful one x.

You were so very lovely this morning in the meeting – radiantly beautiful again. You mesmerise me.

I love you my beautiful one x.

Hi – radiantly beautiful sat there across the table – you take my breath away. I am so in love with you x.

Hello lovely one – looking forward to seeing you this morning – seeing your smile across the table!

I love you my beautiful one x.

Dreaming of you – wanting to lie intertwined together. I love you x.

Hello.

I don’t want you to think that my life is miserable because it isn’t – so I am just fine. So many things here are just fine too. The house is fine, the children are fine, my Dad is fine. But at the same time, you describe it best, I am invisible. For at least 10 years now, my view on things has somehow been invalid – so many times in the early years I complained about simply wanting an equal footing – to be treated equitably. And then as with so many things after a while you just stop complaining. If I do as I am asked then usually that is fine – and I do try to do that. But I am not psychic and it is hard to second guess someone.

There are so many things that I could write about but as I sit here thinking about them, actually I can’t be bothered because actually I don’t care any more – I used to, but no more – perhaps that is the issue – who knows? What I do know is that you are the love of my life…..

I am very lucky to have you – I love you x.