I used to think that the weekends were bad when I could speak to you – but now 2 days seems so incredibly trivial compared to this trip. But writing here and seeing your messages really helps a lot.

I spend so much time thinking about you – and it is truly lovely. I dream about you, I want to hold you, to talk to you, to hear your voice, to be reckless, to explore you and your wants and likes and then so much more. I want you to feel loved and wanted – to know how much I care. I want you to be safe with me in my arms, in our bed – “us”.

I want you – I love you my beautiful one x.

Hi – off to a real job – missing you being here in my office. Missing speaking to you on the phone, seeing you in meetings, popping by your office. You brighten my day in so many ways without even realising my beautiful one.

Please keep yourself safe there – always know that I love you my darling x.

Hello – telephone conference time – thank you for my messages today – they always make me very happy – but please only send them if it is safe for you to do so.

I think you are the most wonderful soul – you mesmerise me and my heart just melts every time you look at me. My life is so enriched by you – you are everything to me.

I love you my beautiful one x.

Good morning beautiful one – hope you slept well. In meetings for the afternoon then back in a real job for a bit after that. But thinking about you constantly and really missing your radiant smile. I hope that today is not too troublesome or difficult for you. Please take care of yourself – remember that is your job when I am not there.

I am so looking forward to next monday – I just need to see you.

I love you x.

Hello – in between things – too much going on again today. But wanted to stop and tell you how much I love you. Some difficult conversations at home this morning too for me – in part predictable based on decisions from a week or so ago. No explosions, nothing unpleasant though. I am ok, ticking along in the usual way – and counting down the time until you are back.

I miss you my darling – I love you beautiful one x.

Hello – sleep well beautiful one – off to do a real job again – lots happening today – too much really and tomorrow and friday especially very chaotic but keeps me occupied. Always though you are in my thoughts my darling.

Please take care – I love you x.

Hi – another day gone – another day closer until you are back my beautiful one – painful, tiresome and very hard but slowly the time is passing.

I love you so very much – please come back safely x.

night #5 – very worried about you after last night my darling – please be safe – I love you x.