Hello – clocks changed – walking again soon. Another day closer to seeing you again – like a clock ticking down. Hard to explain how much I miss you but I know that you will be back – hope you are ok my darling – keep safe.

I love you my beautiful one x.

night #3 – listening to your songs quietly – in and out of sleep – all the time you are here with me – I love you x.

Going to my room on my own shortly – will sit and think about you. I listen to your songs at night until I fall asleep. IF it is safe for you do text even if it is in the middle of the night here – I am rarely completely asleep. And even if you can’t stay (I understand completely) it lifts my heart. I will always reply but as before keep yourself safe – that is paramount.

I can’t tell you enough – you are the love of my life – I need to find a path so that we can walk side-by-side in the open. Only then will you truly know what you mean to me x.

My heart yearns for you, my heart desires you, my heart is bursting with love for you. It is a teeny bit broken whilst you are away but it will mend when you come back to me. My heart beats quickly when you text me and when I see your name in my email inbox, it races when I hear your voice, and it melts when you look at me face-to-face with that truly magical and hypnotic smile of yours. In so many ways you are the most exquisite and beautiful soul, sometimes fragile, always loving – I want you to be mine and mine alone. I can’t help my jealousy – it grows even though I try to control it – but I do not want to share you any more. I do not want to have to give you back – it simply hurts too much.

I love you my beautiful one x.

Can’t stop thinking about you – you monopolise my thoughts – and that is just fine with me (in fact, exactly as I want it), beautiful one. I would wish to spend all my time with you if I had my way. You are just totally mesmerising – enchanting and captivating. I find you totally intoxicating – and I want you so very much. Plus you are so very beautiful, I desire you – you make me uncontrolled for you when we are intimate – and that is truly heavenly.

You are the most amazing woman – and I love you. I had never anticipated the intense emotions that you bring out in me – but I am so very glad that you do – I do not want to give you up my beautiful one x.

Sitting here thinking about you and how we are when we are together. Thinking about how well we get on, even talking about some difficult things. How quickly time passes when we are together – hours seem to pass in an instant. How we look after each other and worry about each other. How we both feel the pain of our time apart.

You treat me so differently to the way in which I have been treated before. You show me kindness and tenderness and you love me in such an amazing way. I feel so very close to you both emotionally and physically. I adore you my darling. I want to be with you.

I love you my beautiful one x.

Lots of things for me to think about and to talk with you about – no decisions I promise – not without you. But if we both spend some time thinking then we can talk and share and plan I hope.

You are the most amazing woman I have ever known – I want you so very much.

I love you my darling beautiful one x.

Hello lovely, finished jobs in the garden – done 7k rowing too. Wondering what you are doing – hope you are ok – as much as can be.

Counting down the days until you are back – then counting down the days until our trip. Then more trips in May which will be lovely. I know it seems a long way off but I am looking forward to them.

Wanting to hold you close to me – wanting to keep you safe – wanting to make love to you. So many emotions and so much love for you – you are definitely perfect and I love you my beautiful one x.