It is such a wonderful feeling to see you in the mornings – I wish that every day was like today, seeing your beautiful smile and holding your hand.

I spent so much of last night thinking about you, dreaming about you – wondering how you are. Missing you, longing for you – wanting to lie with you in my arms.

I really want to support you as you go away – I am not sure that I do that that well because at the same time I am very sad too – I will miss you terribly my beautiful one. If there is anything that I can meaningfully do to help you please tell me – I feel very useless at times.

You are everything to me – I need you very much and I love you x.

Hello beautiful one – looking forward to seeing you today – just want to hold you close – I miss you so. I love you x.

As always, lying here thinking of you – just wanting to fall asleep with you in my arms…. I love you x.

I am yours – just dreaming of the sunshine on our faces x.

Lots of stuff today – but fundamentally all that counts is you. I want to say more – but don’t know the words. All I know is that you are the love of my life and I want you. I feel absolute and profound love for you – you are my beautiful one x.

Hello – the dog wandered off. I followed her. I found her eating a dead pigeon that the fox had caught. The pheasants were watching the dog. The owl was on the playhouse watching me and the hedgehog was rolled up in a ball…. It is like a zoo here.

I am sat here in the playhouse (using the wifi – how forward thinking of me!) – I yearn for you – you are my darling beautiful one x.

Sat on the doorstep with the dog (my choice – the dog looks miffed that I sitting in her spot!). First wave of discussions re sleeping alone – somewhat robust but I stood my ground. It would appear that contrary to your view I have no skills at all so apparently there is not much of a loss anyway – which is just fine with me – but then that makes sense because I keep telling you that you fixed me. You just won’t believe me…..

So still on my own – with my darling beautiful one in my head and my heart. And my body longing for yours.

I love you x

I wish I could be stronger than I am to try and support you with the sadness that you feel as you are going away but I am not sure that I can. I will try but my heart is in turmoil. I love you my beautiful one x.