Hello beautiful one – thinking of you constantly – pining away here. Please have a safe journey – look after yourself for me and know that I will be waiting for you. I will write lots.

I love you x.

Can’t sleep – missing you more than I can describe – I love you my darling beautiful one so very much indeed x.

I am fine – you are everything – I am waiting for you – only you – the love of my life, my darling x.

I love you my darling – take care and please come back to me x.

PPS – I don’t believe that her request was real – after 3 or more years, it is not real. Instead I believe that it is a test to see what I would do. So she has her answer – but not in a million years am I making love to anyone other than my darling beautiful one.

I love you x.

PS before you start worrying – I am truly fine – I love you my darling x.

I have had a bit too much to drink (not that much but a bit quick). I am therefore in a little bit of trouble for not being attentive enough today (I did empty the dishwasher but not spontaneously – I had to be asked apparently).

Then there was the question – we have not had sex for at least 3 years (I cannot remember the last time). But today (of all days with you leaving – definitely too many life events this week), today is when she asks again (for later). So I said “no” and then there was a mini-explosion.

Before you start worrying – I am fine, truly, absolutely – I cannot lie with anyone but you. I belong to you. Off to my room alone – and that is just fine.

I want to make love to you but only you – there is no one else x.

You make my heart soar, you lift me up. You make me insane, you make we want you. You make me want to hold you, to protect you, to keep you safe, resting against me, with your head on my shoulder. You make me complete.

I feel your love every day – I want you to know mine, to feel loved and wanted, to understand that you are the most amazing, fantastic and attractive woman both emotionally and physically – someone who I want to spend all my time with, who I want to care for, who I want to make love to.

Day after day, I want you more and more – you are everything.

I love you my beautiful one x.